婚姻

初戀總是寶貴的，令人難忘的，遺憾的是，十有八九的初戀，都不能成為婚姻， 因為不能成為婚姻，初戀又顯得更為寶貴，讓人回味無窮。

阿偉是一位心臟科醫生，和太太結婚二十年，兒子已入大學。 在一次大學舊生會，重遇初戀情人Alice。Alice當年是眾男生的夢中情人，公認 的美人兒。就是現在，仍比實際年齡漂亮年輕。當初，為了一個誤會，再加兩人 的自尊心特強，就這樣分開了。後來，Alice去了外國，阿偉留在香港。初戀的夭 折，一度令阿偉痛苦不已，幾乎垮了，幸虧得一位護士同事的關心和鼓勵，令他 於走出感情低谷，重拾心情，這位女同事就成了他的太太。

不料二十年後重逢Alice。那晚，他們談了很多，解除了誤會，只是，大家都已人 到中年！次日，Alice打電話邀阿偉去淺水灣酒店燭光晚餐, 阿偉問：「是不是請我太太一起去？」 Alice回答：「我只想請你一個人，我們已失卻太多時光，現在是彌補的時候「對不起，除了因公事，晚上我一般不單獨外出吃晚飯。」 「你不是怕老婆吧？」Alice譏諷他。 我怕老婆！」他直認不諱。「我好怕不自覺地令她不開心。」

幾日後，Alice又特地讓速遞公司送來一封信，信封上寫明要他親啟，並且注 明：only for you！阿偉將信原封退回。 「本來，我會讓太太也看這封信的，既然你不希望她看，我也不看了。我已習慣 與她分享生活中的一切喜怒哀樂。」

Alice很不忿氣。她見過阿偉的太太，已中年發福，且不擅修飾，像個屋村師奶， 相反，自己比實際年齡要年輕得多，風韻猶存。當年阿偉追她追得這樣熱烈，他 不可能對她失卻feeling的，一定是阿偉的太太兇神惡煞。 她一不做二不休，當 下親身到他診所。

阿偉，你只需講yes or no。你仍對我有 feeling 嗎？你還愛我嗎？你以前是十分愛我的。」

阿偉只笑笑。「愛一個人與恨一個人同樣需要精力和能力。感情過去了，應該無 愛無恨，古人說，一笑泯恩愁。讓已過去的、無法改變的事實影響目前，根本毫 無好處。我已將我的全部愛分給我的家人，而且，我已過了這種玩浪漫感情的年 紀。」

Alice仍不死心。「你真的愛你太太？還是僅出於一種義務和責任？賽過當年對我 那份初戀之情？」

「我是醫生。我相信一種科學說法，真正的愛只能維持十個月，正好是由胚胎到 嬰兒哇哇出世所需的時日。這或許是從生物進化的角度來解釋。但愛不同愛情，愛，或許是一種由荷爾蒙分泌而激發出的感情反應，一如我們悲傷會流淚,開心會 微笑，是一種很生物式的感情反應。用一個不合適的比喻：雄性動物在追求異性 時，毛 會特別亮麗，叫聲也會特別悅耳愛，只是一種行為，動物也懂得用舔觸等 動作表示『愛』，然而，唯有愛情，才是人類獨有的能力。一個情字，令人類愛 的行為，變得成熟、深沉，由一種單一的行為上升為一種情懷。我很懷念我們的 初戀，但我更珍惜我和太太的婚姻，珍惜我們一起走過的這段路。」

阿偉的思路非常清晰，不愧是位名醫生。他十分明白，當初，在他感情最低谷、 最消沉時，是現在的太太給他溫暖，喚起他的信心。後來，太太省吃儉用，自己 帶著兒子獨守空巢，支持阿偉外出留學深造。這二十來年，是太太伴他走過來 的。太太全心於這個家上，無心顧及自己的儀容、衣著，她將每一分一秒，都花 在家人身上。而且，太太屬於那種生活低調，安於做男人背後的女人那種類型。 阿偉不想太太為了他而刻意改變自己，做她不喜歡做的事。因為愛她，他也尊重 她，由她選擇她自己喜歡的生活方式。

「我們互相看著白髮開始萌生，皺紋出現，因為這後面包含著許多只有我們兩人知道的故事，孩子的出世，我們第一間屋的喬遷，雙方父母病故的哀痛，我們升 職，她的一次有驚無險的大手術……點點滴滴都寫在她和我的皺紋上，也只有她和 我才懂得。至於你，Alice，我很懷念那段我們花樣的年華，但我不會用現在幸福 充實的家庭生活去交換那段時日的延續，這只有百害而無一利。如果我們都珍惜 我們的初戀，珍惜這次難得的二十年後的重逢，我們就這樣互相握手、互道『珍 重』吧！」

Alice聽了這番話，默默擁抱了阿偉，轉頭就走。

人說，蒼蠅不叮無縫的蛋。 今天婚外情、一夜情泛濫， 但這絕成不了你忽略她、冷淡她的理由。 珍惜你與她一起走過的路， 而你對她的愛，會如醇酒，愈陳舊愈香

Life ~ Rick Warren

You will enjoy the new insights that Rick Warren has, with his wife nowhaving cancer and him having 'wealth' from the book sales. This is anabsolutely incredible short interview with Rick Warren,'Purpose Driven Life ' author and pastor of Saddleback Church inCalifornia

In the interview by Paul Bradshaw with Rick Warren, Rick said:
People ask me, What is the purpose of life? And I respond: In anutshell, life is preparation for eternity. We were not made to lastforever, and God wants us to be with Him in Heaven.

One day my heart is going to stop, and that will be the end of my body--but not the end of me.
I may live 60 to 100 years on earth, but I am going to spend trillionsof years in eternity. This is the warm-up act - the dress rehearsal. Godwants us to practice on earth what we will do forever in eternity.

We were made by God and for God, and until you figure that out, lifeisn't going to make sense.
Life is a series of problems: Either you are in one now, you're justcoming out of one, or you're getting ready to go into another one..

The reason for this is that God is more interested in your characterthan your comfort.
God is more interested in making your life holy than He is in makingyour life happy.
We can be reasonably happy here on earth, but that's not the goal oflife. The goal is to grow in character, in Christ likeness.

This past year has been the greatest year of my life but also thetoughest, with my wife, Kay, getting cancer. I used to think that life was hills and valleys - you go through a darktime, then you go to the mountaintop, back and forth. I don't believethat anymore.

Rather than life being hills and valleys, I believe that it's kind oflike two rails on a railroad track, and at all times you have somethinggood and something bad in your life.

No matter how good things are in your life, there is always somethingbad that needs to be worked on.

And no matter how bad things are in your life, there is always somethinggood you can thank God for.

You can focus on your purposes, or you can focus on your problems.
If you focus on your problems, you're going intoself-centeredness,'which is my problem, my issues, my pain.' But one ofthe easiest ways to get rid of pain is to get your focus off yourselfand onto God and others.

We discovered quickly that in spite of the prayers of hundreds ofthousands of people, God was not going to heal Kay or make it easy forher.

It has been very difficult for her, and yet God has strengthened her character, given her a ministry of helping other people, given her atestimony, drawn her closer to Him and to people.
You have to learn to deal with both the good and the bad of life.

Actually, sometimes learning to deal with the good is harder. Forinstance, this past year, all of a sudden, when the book sold 15 millioncopies, it made me instantly very wealthy.
It also brought a lot of notoriety that I had never had to deal withbefore. I don't think God gives you money or notoriety for your own ego or for you to live a life of ease.

So I began to ask God what He wanted me to do with this money, notorietyand influence. He gave me two different passages that helped me decidewhat to do, II Corinthians 9 and Psalm 72

First, in spite of all the money coming in, we would not change ourlifestyle one bit.. We made no major purchases.
Second, about midway through last year, I stopped taking a salary fromthe church.
Third, we set up foundations to fund an initiative we call The PeacePlan to plant churches, equip leaders, assist the poor, care for thesick, and educate the next generation.
Fourth, I added up all that the chu rch had paid me in the 24 yearssince I started the church, and I gave it all back. It was liberating tobe able to serve God for free.

We need to ask ourselves: Am I going to live for possessions?Popularity?
Am I going to be driven by pressures? Guilt? Bitterness? Materialism? Oram I going to be driven by God's purposes (for my life)?

When I get up in the morning, I sit on the side of my bed and say, God,if I don't get anything else done today, I want to know You more andlove You better. God didn't put me on earth just to fulfill a to-dolist. He's more interested in what I am than what I do.That's why we're called human beings, not human doings.

Happy moments, PRAISE GOD.
Difficult moments, SEEK GOD.
Quiet moments, WORSHIP GOD.
Painful moments, TRUST GOD.
Every moment, THANK GOD.
May God's Blessings on you today.

11 things they did not teach you at school...~ Bill Gates

Bill Gates recently gave a speech to High School students about 11 things they did not and will not learn in school.

He talks about how feel-good, politically correct teachings created a generation of kids with no concept of reality and how this concept set them up for failure in the real world.

Rule 1: Life is not fair - get used to it!

Rule 2 : The world won't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

Rule 3: You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice-president with a car phone until you earn both.

Rule 4: If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss.

Rule 5: Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your Grandparents had a different word for burger flipping: they called it opportunity.

Rule 6: If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

Rule 7: Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you thought you were. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent's generation, try delousing the closet in your own room.

Rule 8: Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life HAS NOT. In some schools, they have abolished fail in grades and they'll give you as MANY TIMES as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.

Rule 9: Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you FIND YOURSELF. Do that on your own time.

Rule 10: Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

Rule 11: Be nice to Nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one!

How true....he IS a genius

Edison

Edison is now a brother in christ. Praise the lord.
Read the following copy from the blog of Jaeson Ma (nephew of Ma Si Hang)


Pray for Edison Chen, Me and the World
Dear Bros and Sis in Christ,I have a very urgent and special prayer request. For nearly 2 months now I have not announced publicly, even to my prayer team to protect the confidentiality of the fragile situation I am about to tell you. In February the Holy Spirit led me supernaturally to a special young man named "Edison Chen." He is a famous pop star in Hong Kong and China who recently this year was involved in a internet sex scandal that received worldwide attention. My heart broke for this young man when I heard the news. I prayed for him to find the love of God and the forgiveness that is offered through Jesus Christ. I also prayed that God would use this situation for greater good, somehow to redeem and bless the youth and families of Asia. Through a series of divine circumstances in February God brought me to Edison, I shared the Gospel and God's personal prophetic word to him and Edison gave his life to Christ. His heart was genuine, his repentance was true, and I was so happy to see a new brother find God's forgiveness, mercy and grace. God truly loves Edison. The days after, many others in his family and circle of friends came to know Christ. It was a supernatural experience, that only God could orchestrate.Yesterday night, I found out that one of the largest secular magazines in Hong Kong/Asia had caught wind of Edison's conversion and wrote a front page story on our friendship. I was very much in shock to hear about this because I had not spoken about this publicly for nearly 2 months. I was more surprised when my contact in Hong Kong told me the article was 100% positive, shared about my own conversion experience, my personal ministry and how Edison is starting a new life and new path in Christ. Honestly, when I heard this news knowing that millions all over Asia would read this uplifting article and possibly find Jesus Christ as their personal Lord and Savior, I wept.I wept with joy for Edison and all the millions in Asia who have been negatively effected by the sin & immorality that was spread. I knew God was restoring Edison, a prodigal son who had returned to his heavenly Father. I wept, because God spoke to me when I met Edison that He would bring greater good from this scandal than evil. That what Satan meant for evil, God would turn for good. I am thankful to God because I know millions who read this magazine will see that God has forgiven Edison Chen and all the victims, showing them His love and mercy. Therefore, those who read this article after realizing that God has forgiven Edison, will also realize that Jesus can forgive their sins and give them hope for a new life in Christ. Please pray that God uses this testimony to bless the masses with the power of the Gospel. Good News is spreading in Asia, Jesus died on the cross and resurrected on the third day so our sins could be forgiven and anyone who believes in Him will not die, but have everlasting life. (John 3:16)Now I ask you for prayer. Edison Chen, the Victims and myself need your prayers more than ever before. Please pray for Edison Chen and others...1. Pray for protection from media pressure: There is a lot of pressure with an public article like this to perform as a Christian. Please pray that people realize Edison and others who have become Christian are still a work in progress. As I am a work in progress myself. No one is perfect, we are all human and we all need love and forgiveness. God doesn't expect us to be perfect, but to trust in His mercy and grace. Pray that God would protect this story and situation against gossip, accusation or deception, but only the truth of Jesus Christ would continually be uplifted in the media.2. Please pray millions of Christians around the world would pray for Edison, his family, the victims to be strengthened in faith, comforted and restored to be a testimony to society in a positive way. Pray that the many victims of this situation would also find faith and forgiveness in Christ.3. Pray that many who read this article and story would be saved. Pray that those who read this testimony of Edison's repentance and faith in Christ, my own personal testimony will realize that God loves them also, that they can be forgiven of their sins and have a new life in Jesus Christ. Pray as they realize God has forgiven Edison, He will also forgive them.4. Pray that my family and I would be a great testimony for Christ. Please pray that God would protect and help me and my family in America and Hong Kong to be good witnesses for Christ. I am returning to Hong Kong in May for ministry and I need God's wisdom in how to talk about this story to others so that they see Christ and not me or anyone else. May He keep me, Edison and all others humble, so that we decrease but Christ would increase.5. Ask God to turn what was meant for evil into good. Pray that through this scandal, that greater good would come out of this than evil. Pray that millions will be inspired, touched and put their faith in Jesus Christ across the world. This scandal was probably one of the biggest news stories in Asia in the last decade, many were adversely affected, but God now can turn the tide and bring hope and healing to all the world and turn tragedy into triumph!Lastly, I just really want you all to keep this low key and simply "pray" if you read this. Pray for Edison, he is like a brother to me. I love him and he has a good heart. Many people will try to ridicule or doubt what has happened, but it doesn't matter because I know him and he is not only truly repentant, but he is doing his best to become a better man, change his ways, and live for God. He is a good person. We all make mistakes. I urge the public who reads this, judge not or you will be judged as the Bible says. Forgive Edison, the victims and ask God to forgive your own sins, because none of us are perfect and we all need Jesus forgiveness. Edison is a good man, God loves him, knows his heart is truly sorry and will restore him to be a great role model in society. I know it, I have faith not only for him but for all who are affected by this. Pray for Edison's spiritual restoration. Because t's not easy, Edison, his family, his friends and myself are all God's work in progress and we need prayers, patience, mercy and grace from everyone to not point the finger, gossip or anything else, but to simply pray asking God to make us more like Christ each day and to be a testimony for Him in this generation. May God receive all the glory in this.Below is the magazine article. God is faithful. Please pray right now for God's will to be done. Thank you!

資深大律師

Few days ago my boss was admitted to be the senior counsel of HKSAR. "SC" used to be titled as "QC, or Queen's Counsel" before the handover. It represents not only seniority in the profession, highest level of advocacy and top knowledge in the law but also personal integrity, conscience and the ultimate dedication and leadership in the profession.

I am so proud, not only because he is my boss but also he is the first SC that i work so closely with.

His path is not easy. He graduated from science school and was a court prosecutor before. He never look down on himself and work his way up. His achievement is an encouragement for many in the younger generation.

經歷使我成長 ~~ 王祖藍

我今年廿七歲，高五呎四吋，個子小，聲音大。香港電視觀眾對我的印象較深刻，因為我主持兒童節目，也唱歌，近年還拍劇集。

從小我不擅長運動，但唱歌、辯論、演戲，凡是用口的，樣樣都喜愛。所以，雖然並不高大威猛，風頭倒也不弱。老師曾在我的成績單上批：「很有領袖才能，但宜謙卑。」意即我有點驕傲。其實這只是自卑感作祟，因我自忖身材不高，有補償心理，總想在別的事上與人一較高下。
我家並不富有，不過父母對我們兒女關懷備至。他們都覺得我聽話，學業和比賽成績都好，且能言善道，做人也好像頗負責任。他們不覺得我有毛病，因為他們看不見我的內心世界。

荳芽夢醒
我為人感性、早熟，小小年紀，便對愛情有所憧憬——可能因愛看電影和愛聽流行曲的緣故，滿腦子都是浪漫的愛情故事。荳芽夢始自十二、三歲，便與女孩子拍拖，而她們也覺得我老實可靠
十六、七歲時，我與合唱團一位團友正式交往，她年齡比我小。我們交往了一兩年。但那時根本不知道甚麼是愛，只覺得很喜歡和她在一起，希望她一生一世只愛我一個人——即或將來我對她不好，或另有女友，她都要情比金堅，永遠愛我。當然，這是極自私的想法。結果就是分手，因為她不能忍受我。失去了才懂珍惜，才想到對方其實是個很好的女孩，而且對我很好，可惜已無法挽回。

轉捩點
一九九八年，我十七歲，中學畢業，考進演藝學院。與女友分手後，才開始認真尋求上帝。兒時也去過教會，但不穩定；稍長，要兼職，就不去聚會了。一天在回家路上，車子正停在九龍城浸信會門前，我不由自主地走進去；看見一位女傳道，面貌慈祥，正唱著我小學時唱過的詩歌。當時的感覺彷彿回到了小學時代。那位女傳道，就像我小學一年級時的女校長。校長很疼我，上音樂課時，常特地過來聽我唱歌，她也教聖經。想起以前的女校長，頓時重拾兒時那種純潔的感覺，反省現在的自己是多麼的污穢。其實，我很渴望單純，可惜由於受環境的污染和內心的私慾交迫，漸漸失去純真。散會後，我立刻趨前，請女傳道介紹我一個適合的團契。之後參加團契，導師林文福講「愛情的等候」，正適合我，便留了下來。
不少人說，演藝學院是基督徒的墳墓。因為讀藝術很容易受存在主義、後現代主義、思想的開放、藝術的沉醉所影響，會容易離開上帝。感謝上帝保守，為我安排一群愛主的基督徒彼此守望相助，互相勉勵提醒，使我在演藝學院五年，靈命漸漸扎根。記得當時特別求上帝改變我那張永不饒人的嘴巴。過去我總喜歡挖苦、譏諷、爭辯，漸漸學會用口祝福、與人分享。現在弟兄姊妹都願意找我談話，和我分享。
當時我所參加的團契有各階層人士：窮的、富的、家庭破碎的、精神有問題的... ...聽他們分享，覺得自己很幸福。但不知如何幫助他們，因不了解他們。於是禱告上帝，說：「上帝呀，如果祢真要用我，請考驗我吧。我沒有甚麼經歷，不懂得怎樣幫助他們。」

失敗後學習
禱告以後，隔了幾天，收到以前女友給我的一封電郵，叫我別再找她，說我找她一次，她就傷心一次；又說，我根本不懂她。事緣我去教會以後，仍與她聯絡，常對她說：「我很愛妳，現正在教會學習何謂愛。」卻不知道二人都變了，跟以前不同了。
我留意她寫電郵的時間，正是我禱告上帝的那晚，於是覺得，這是上帝給我的答覆和考驗，心裡釋放，並感謝天父讓我知道，一個人犯了錯，後果須自己承當。我也感謝上帝，當時我還年輕，尚不至悔之已晚。我明白，那次我很傷害對方，也很傷害自己。之後更知自己有很多軟弱，不禁暗問：為甚麼男人會這樣？為甚麼一個年輕的男孩子可以這樣？
從前，我看不見自己的黑暗面，總以為能用驕傲掩蓋自卑。感謝上帝，讓我在演藝學院讀戲劇時，看到很多人性的軟弱。反觀自己，心裡有驕傲、自私、敗壞、情慾、操控慾... ...，我承認，我本來就是這樣醜陋。感謝主耶穌赦免我，拯救我，給我機會從頭開始，在主裡學習。
從那次戀愛失敗至今，我在感情上時有起伏。但在主耶穌裡我學會怎樣保護對方，同時也了解自己是否真愛對方。現在縱使很喜歡一個女孩，也須在上帝面前等候，因和她在一起並不一定對她有利。我應該學習為她的利益著想。例如：現在表達，談戀愛，是否適合呢？以前我不懂想這些，聖經卻說得很清楚：「愛是恆久忍耐，又有恩慈；愛是不嫉妒；不自誇，不張狂，不作害羞的事，不求自己的益處... ...。」（哥林多前書十三4至8）我得好好消化，並且實踐。

更大考驗
誰料更大考驗還在後頭。一九九九年十二月，演藝學院有個藝術交流，我們去廣州演出。出發前一週，爸爸不在家。我問媽，她說爸去潛水了。爸爸和我興趣不同，他是個運動健兒，喜歡騎馬、駕摩托車、滑浪風帆、潛水、打壁球等。所以我沒懷疑，並如期出發。
一星期後，回到家裡，見爸媽弟妹四人都在，很是快樂，便口若懸河地告訴他們廣州之行的所見所聞。卻見他們個個木無表情，不覺心裡納悶。後來爸支開弟妹，告訴我，他患了癌症。真是晴天霹靂！原來，我去廣州前那一個多星期，爸進了醫院，切除腸腫瘤，接著又做化療等。媽不想影響我去廣州的演出，沒告訴任何人，連一個親戚也不通知，因我是家中長子，怕他們會告訴我。直等到我走後，媽才將爸患癌的事告訴親朋。原來爸媽在十一月底已知道這個消息，媽忍著近一個月不告訴人，心裡多苦！我回家後，電話響個不停，很多親戚打電話來，都談及爸患病的事。想到爸媽忍了一個多月，而我竟一無所知，不禁泣不成聲。

林傳道知道後，和我禱告。當時家中只有我和妹妹是基督徒。教會弟兄姊妹都很關心，介紹醫生，送藥物，送補品，常常家訪、分享。幸好在前幾年我的靈命在基督裡扎了根，知道這是屬靈的爭戰，於是提醒自己，無論遭遇甚麼事，都依靠上帝，這樣心裡漸漸寧靜。
過了一年多，爸爸掃瞄後得知一切平安；雖仍不信耶穌，也很接納弟兄姊妹的關懷，聽他們分享信仰經歷。後來醫生說，爸可以接受大腸接駁手術。爸爸很開心，以為可像從前一樣，不必整天掛著個袋子，甚或能再去潛水、打球... ...。我們一家都很高興。手術前一天，大家還在一起開玩笑。怎料次日開刀，打開肚子，發現癌細胞已經擴散。頓時全家陷入愁雲慘霧，仿似從天堂被打落地獄。對爸爸來說，更是很大打擊。對我也是重創。因我期望上帝憐憫醫治爸爸，祂卻不理，實在太叫人失望了！

發脾氣
回想過去一年多，我常陪著爸爸進出醫院，很熱切地向周圍的人傳福音。那時好像很有信心，又覺得上帝與爸爸同在。但這天晚上，我竟忍不住向上帝發脾氣說：「我很不願意再向祢禱告！我不願意向祢禱告了... ...理性上我知道祢一定會賜福給我，但感情上我無法接受。如果祢在，請告訴我！」那天晚上，我不停問上帝：「祢在哪裡？」
那夜，睡在爸鄰床的，是個十七歲的少年。他腸內生了二百多粒息肉。已凌晨兩點多鐘了，他還翻來覆去，無法安寢，好像很痛苦的樣子。以往我看見這種情況，一定會過去為他禱告。但那晚，我對上帝發脾氣，至深夜也不願意禱告；只說：「上帝呀，如果祢要我過去，祢告訴我吧！」

當時，弟弟在爸和少年人中間的硬椅上睡覺，很不舒服，就醒來。我叫他過來睡在我坐的軟椅上，我便坐到那少年人旁邊。他仍翻來覆去無法入睡。我問他：「你怎樣了？」他告訴我，手上種了一粒用來注射藥物的痘，那痘扯著他，痛死了，睡不著，明晨七時又要做手術。我終於忍不住對他說：「我是基督徒，為你祈禱好嗎？」他說：「好吧。」於是我為他祈禱，求上帝減輕他的痛楚，讓他安睡，明天手術順利... ...。

上帝仍在
當時我的禱告其實沒有多大信心。禱告完了，那少年把手在我眼前張張合合，告訴我說：「我現在一點也不痛了！」真神奇！我立刻對他說：「那麼你睡吧，這是上帝的工作。」之後，他睡得很甜。我走到一旁禱告，不禁哭了出來。我說：「上帝呀，我至今才明白，祢雖在生死的問題上沒答應我；在爸爸生病這件事上，祢沒答應我；但在這少年人身上，祢回答了我：『我在這裡！我一直都在！』」這回答我一連聽到好幾次，真不得不向上帝降服。我深知道，無論處境怎樣，上帝仍在，祂就在我身旁。

爸爸出院回家，有一夜，須再入醫院，他就摟住我說：「我一直有祈禱，一直為你們祈禱呀！」爸爸知道我很希望他信耶穌，他這樣說是向我表示，他其實心裡信上帝，不過沒告訴我罷了。
過了一段時間，爸爸被送入白普理善終院，每晚都要注射嗎啡止痛。我每晚為他祈禱，求上帝醫治，減輕他的痛苦。有時他因過於痛苦，或發惡夢，會發脾氣，不願意禱告。

感謝父親
二○○二年四月的一個晚上，爸爸又感到很痛。我說：「你睡吧，我為你祈禱好嗎？」平時他會昏睡過去，但那晚隔了十幾秒，又清醒過來，說：「阿哥（因我是長子，家人都這樣叫我），你是不是替我祈禱呀？」我心中突然有個感動，很想在禱告中感謝他。我第一次說了一大堆感謝的話：「感謝上帝，賜我一個好爸爸，他一直為這個家盡上自己的責任。我感謝爸爸在這段日子為我們打這場仗，並立下做父親的美好榜樣。謝謝爸爸為我們從小到大所做的一切... ...」我一一數算爸爸一生在我們家所作的，之後，以詩篇廿三篇結束禱告。
我感到爸爸緊緊握住我的手，是清醒的，完全聽到我的禱告，不是在昏迷狀態。禱告完畢，他的情況轉危，於是通知家人。就這樣，爸離開了我們，享年僅四十六歲。起初醫生說，他只有三個月生命。結果他活了兩年多。喪禮那天，我與親戚分享說：我很感恩，因現在天上有兩位父親在等著我。上帝知道爸那天晚上要離去，就感動我講了一番感謝爸爸的話，並且以詩篇廿三篇作結，讓他知道要回到天父那裡去。

媽媽是個很堅強的女人，至今仍未信耶穌。爸爸生病時，她仍很堅強，不覺得需要上帝。但我知道，主耶穌會拯救她。我曾與媽媽分享，爸爸再入醫院時曾說，一直為我們一家禱告，那當然是指離世後，盼上帝照顧我們家庭。我對她說：「我的個子這麼小，長得不英俊，讀的是戲劇，真不容易找出路。爸爸去世時，我還有一年才畢業，家境實在困難；但是天父給我們豐富預備，基本生活上的開銷可以應付。後來我一畢業，便找到工作，雖然收入不高，做了一個暑假舞台劇。九月一日就加入香港無線電線廣播公司，每個月都有不少工作，這全是上帝的恩典。爸爸為我們禱告，上帝憐憫，特別照顧我們。」

使人蒙福
上帝很奇妙，我們人生有很多不如意事，但上帝可以把這些不如意的事化作福氣。我舉個例，在二○○五年初，公司有一位撰稿的同事被解僱，另一位與我合作做兒童節目的同事Jessica生病進醫院。我去醫院探望Jessica時，她已離開醫院，誰料我正要離去，一打開病房的門，倒迎面見到了被解僱的那位同事。我問她是否來看Jessica。她答，是看她媽媽。因她媽媽患了直腸癌，睡在Jessica床位的斜對面。 真是禍不單行！可以想見，她的情緒十分低落，非常憂鬱。我問她，在照顧媽媽的事上，是否有困難？她很驚訝，怎麼我能體會她的處境？她說連男朋友和家人也沒法明白，只有她一個人長期在媽媽身邊照顧。我告訴她，因我爸爸也是患了直腸癌，他於二○○二年去世。接著，我和她分享照顧爸爸時種種心靈掙扎，並鼓勵她。那一刻，她知道，她的路我已走過，她並不孤單；並且，那條路不是不能走過的。於是她得著鼓舞，漸漸振作起來。她說：「我還工作時，看見你真樂觀，和同事玩得很開心，心中很羨慕！當時我媽已患癌病，我很羨慕你那麼快樂。我想，為甚麼你可以整天嘻嘻哈哈？你一定有個很幸福的家庭。今天才知道，你爸也和我媽一樣！」

我們曾有過的痛苦經歷，原來可以幫助、鼓舞傷心的人。這一位同事是基督徒，可是面對雙重的打擊，心靈不免軟弱。上帝就用我過去的痛苦給她打氣，安慰她。以後她就沒那麼消沉，積極和媽媽面對困難。

這個故事還沒有完。她的媽媽也是基督徒，睡在Jessica的斜對面。她們教會天天有弟兄姊妹來看她，給她唱歌。Jessica在旁看了，也很感動，想到自己出身宣教士家庭，卻離開了上帝，於是決定回轉歸向上帝。這真奇妙，像一個三角形，幾方面都同得造就。讓我深刻體會「萬事互相效力，叫愛上帝的人得益處」。雖然我們不知道上帝甚麼時候會用我們來祝福別人，但我親身經歷上帝多次用我的傷痛，叫別人蒙恩。

（余黃國凱採訪、整理）
『中國信徒佈道會』出版， 蒙允許轉載。」

夫婦營後感

每逢有人結婚，我地通常都會祝佢地「白頭到老，永結同心｣！到底我地有冇真正諗過呢兩句祝福語係乜野意思呢？

啱啱過左個三日假期，我地參加左由國際家新協會舉辦既三日兩夜夫婦營。

有人會覺得我地夫婦之間梗係「出現左問題｣先去呢dcamp喇；或者有人覺得我同我老公／老婆都唔知幾好，駛乜去呢d camp。

做人做事，都係預防勝於治療好，夫婦間本來係恩愛既，去完學習完可以更加恩愛，更加了解；夫婦間開始溝通不足，就更要虛心學習同埋努力實踐，積極改善大家之間既關係。

夫婦營中一共有十對夫婦，當中有初婚的，有年長的；有用心改善的，有被迫參與的，有相敬如賓的，有貌合神離的等等；但經過三日積極的學習，導師們真心的教導和坦誠的分享，夫婦們都得到啟發，互吐心聲，關係得到改善。

一段婚姻可以「白頭到老｣，但係「永結｣，可以係「唔同心｣，唔想同床異發夢，相對無言就要靠大家努力喇。